Update: Went to Retrovaille. Was a good session. Talked about forgiveness. Also, had something called a "momentum session" that had other couples from previous sessions come and sit in and answer anonymous questions we wrote up for them. I can't remember all of the questions, but I remember how good I felt about everything.
A couple things I've realized now that I am moving in the right direction. I always thought that the love I had with my H was never as strong as what I felt with the OM. What I am realizing is that if I had met the OM the same time I met H it would have gone about the same way. I am older and more mature so obviously my love now is different than back then. If I had met my H now for the first time I would have had the same kind of feelings about HIM that I had about the OM. I would have put the same amount of effort, etc. Thank God I found the right path. Thank God I didn't leave him.
Today is a day that I am sitting here missing him wishing he was home from work already.....these new feelings are amazing to me.....I can't remember how long it has been that I have felt that.
I got the book, The Power of the Praying Wife. This book is wonderful for me...helps me focus on what I can do and how I can do it.
My mom said how my son told her that "Daddy is home all the time now." and had a big smile. My poor baby having to deal with all my crap. My parents have noticed how much happier he is. I have admittedly seen the change as well. Both his father and I had done a pretty good job sheltering him from most of it, but kids KNOW. I'm so glad I didn't leave my H. HOw sad and miserable I would be right now. Thank you everyone again for keeping me seeing the right path. Really.
