I'm glad you are going to the meeting tonight. That is a huge first step. Just like on this board, hearing other people's stories helps you to feel like you are not alone in this. Also it is not your fault. We all know you have the strength now to get through this.
That is a wonderful picture of you with your kids. I can see the beautiful spirit and your kindness that we have all come to know here. It makes me smile to see you enjoying your children like that.