before you ring the bell you should probably tell him how you feel about him, and ask him if there is any chance of a future. It isn't a very DB move, but before you absolutely quit, it seems to me to be a good idea.
...thats what I was thinking the last 2 weeks, but he must be psychic because he wont deal with me. He hasnt called in that time (I've called him twice on the days he said he was going to call me) and he wont agree to meet, eventhough there is a reason to meet (to sign the lease). I am desperate to have a conversation with him and he isnt going to allow it. Its really horrible and frustrating and I feel sick and anxious.
He said on Saturday he would call me when he was better, Sunday or Monday...well its 7pm now...but I have a feeling he wont call, again. I cant believe he has done this to me a second time, and again without letting me know, just avoiding me. Or is that what people do when they split up.
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Just maybe he would like things to be different, but he is afraid they can't be.
hmm...not sure about this? Do you mean because he is flawed and anxious and "mental" as he keeps telling me? There have been a couple of incidents over the years which I have been thinking about today, not to do with me, but that it highlights that he has some deep seated issues. I cant tell anyone about it and he wouldnt really discuss it with me in recent years, just said it was all in the past (clearly it wasnt).
I dont know if thats why he left me and its very frustrating, or whether its not that big a deal. Its like I know we had a good R, but maybe his issues killed it. Or, is it nothing to do with that, just that I was a rubbish GF!?
I dont know what I will be like on the phone in a while, if he does call, I am feeling very wobbly. Although, as he didnt email me today, I'm fairly certain he wont call.
