Move into the tearful acceptance stage? Stop expecting ANYTHING. I'm not going to date - there are 4 girls in my office in their early 30's who are single and are dating, two broke up after 10 year R's. One heard this morning that another friend broke up with someone this weekend after a 10 year R. There just seems to be so much of this abuot and a horrible inevitability about all of it.
He hasnt emailed me today and NC yesterday...so thats it, first time since Feb we havent been in daily contact. I cant believe I predicted ages back I'd know by the Lunar eclipse (Sat). So annoying.
Maybe he knows I am going to start asking questions and he cant face that, so he is avoiding me.
Feeling now that I wish I'd been more real and honest back in May/June instead of totally putting on a front..and not even asking him any questions when he did start an R talk and now I have missed my chance to ask questions, he is no longer emotionally open to me. So annoying !!!!!
So much has been left unsaid and its so frustrating. I'm not sure I know how to answer you Michelle? Its just over, so what does one do when a R is over? Cry, grieve, pack the photos away. This has all been so damaging for me, its like the bottoms fallen out of my world. Think I need another year.
