The meeting with xh was weird. He is so cold. No emotion at all. It is just so weird to be so business like with someone that has been a part of my life for 8 years. It really makes me sad.
He told me that he is cold to me to "help me". I guess he thinks maybe if he is mean to me then it will help me to not want to be with him. He is wrong. It just makes me even more sad that it has come to the point that we can't be civil.
I remember telling my ex the very samething except that I said that he had a very "hard heart". His response was that, "I have to have a hard heart when it comes to you Beth." Why? Why is it that they have to protect themselves from feeling? Do you think that if he gets too close and feels the pain he's causing you that it would make it harder to do what he's doing? Of course it would, so he leads a parallel life as he did when you were married. Talking to you on the phone is much easier on him than when he has to see you face to face. Don't let his phone demeanor confuse you because it just sets you up for further hurt.
He will have regrets. You can't go through this life hurting people the way he's hurt you and not at some point be haunted with what you've done. Our job is to move on, be happy again, and not give a rats a$$ as to what they think or feel! Then whatever happens is icing on the cake!
Glad you had a nice weekend with someone who treats you as you should be treated!
