Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
That's exactly what I did Lola. I did sent her a text when I went to bed that just asked if she was awake. I got no response. I just wanted to check to see how she was doing after our phone call on Saturday, and wish her luck for her surgery today. I think what is making it rough was that I was supposed to be there to support her for this, and she told me Saturday that he will be there for her surgery.
her surgery was scheduled for 9 this morning. I sent her a text at around 7 that said I wanted to check on her to see how she was doing and that I had been thinking about her a lot this weekend. I also told her I was sending her support and prayers for her surgery. It hasn't gone through so I think she has her phone turned off today. Probably so her parents and/or new guy doesn't check her phone since she's pretty much hidden it from all of them that she still talks to me. Oh well...
I don't want to go overboard with texting/calling her, but I want to tell her that she is going to look great and that I can't wait to see her and how good she looks. The only reason I'm thinking about telling her that is that she made the comment on Saturday that all she knew was that the results of her surgery had better be appreciated. This was during the time she was telling me that physical affection with the new guy was non existant.
I'm going to wait a while before I decide to do anything.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I think you told me that, I had an abdominoplasty about a year and a half ago. I dont know that I would do the boobs or anything, not that I need to, but if i had the chance, i would do the abs again
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Yeah, I can't say that I was really against it, because I'm all for individual decisions and I'm not the kind of guy that would say, "No, you can't do it." ...but I know I didn't show any support and wasn't enthusiastic about it at all.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
I ended up sending her a text yesterday afternoon to tell her she was going to look good, and I was excited to see her results. Her phone was still turned off and she hadn't recieved either of my messages.
Last night I checked my phone before I went to bed, and I noticed that the texts had gone through about an hour before, but I had no response. So I sent her a text asking if I could call her to see how she was doing. She replied telling me to call tomorrow because Aaron was still there, but she was doing fine and was all drugged up.
I'm kind of dissapointed that she didn't send me a text to let me know how she was doing. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up that she would even care to let me know. I'm supposed to call her before noon, so we will see how she reacts to talking to me. After her phone call Saturday afternoon I haven't talked to her. She wen't completely dark, but she has been with her new guy. I don't know what to think. I should stop worrying about it and get on with my life.
I've been thinking a lot this weekend about how I need to just completely detach myself and not worry about her at all. Kind of the "if you love something let it go" mentality. I need to move on.
I'm thinking about calling this girl that my dad is trying to set me up with. It's weird, because I'm actually kind of excited to see what she is like.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
Morning Floyd: Its okay if you want to date, but are you sure you are ready for that?
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I don't know if I'm ready to date or not. I might test the waters and see though. I wasn't really interested when my dad asked me if he could set me up on a blind date, but I'm kind of intrigued now. I've pretty much come to terms with the fact that she has moved on, and I think I need to do the same.
I just need to detach from this situation. I get my hopes up and then get frustrated when they don't come to fruition. I need to stop doing that. It's not healthy. That's really my main goal right now. Going out on a date is kind of a side note, that I've started to think about more and more over the past couple of days as I realize that I need to move forward and forget about this situation.
Who knows what the future will hold. All I know is that i need to quit trying to force it to involve her. If she decides she wants me back, she will come back.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
