Hi Ali, stop feeling like an idiot! Love is never wasted or foolish. Acceptance takes a very long time to really really get to that point. I still after years miss my x on occassions, like when my son walked his sister down the aisle, and when we had our first g/child,when my d nearly died,when I lost our old cat shortly after moving and now when I have just heard from my vet! My x bought this dog for me after we lost our last one. He has never asked about him in years and I will not contact him when the end happens. My dog is the last link betwen us, he will not even consider it a link. I doubt I ever cross his mind in any way. So I will find it twice as hard.
Well got to tackle jobs I have been putting of for weeks thinking I had all summer ! I always do this my excuse is I work better under pressure. It's a lie I am just lazy!
Hope your day is productive and you hear sooner rather than later. You are right about the saturn thingy it is a hard time for me. No time to feel sorry for myself tho! Dye that hair and find the new you! ((()))
