Hey Mishka - you're welcome, I didnt think I explained it very well though !??
Jeff - Hiya! I wondered where you had got to, things have really nosedived in my sitch hey?
Abbey - thanks for that and you're right of course and I wasnt intending to contact him, which was why I was stressed about the mortgages...as I may have to! Been thinking abuot paying them myself this month, then he can owe it me when he does get in touch, but I havent got the money.
I suppose I think...well we already went through the LRT, I didnt contact him from before NYE and then he contacted me end of Jan to say he was moving back here. Then he started tentaviely tecting and emailing one line a day, but also, inviting himself around every weekend. First for 3 hurs, then 4, then up to 6, then it was 10 or 11 and by May we had stayed overnight together. I just cant see that we are going to end up going around that merry go round again. It feels like things have moved on, not back the beginning of the circle.
I dont think I can choose to go dark/grey, as he has decided to stop seeing me (and he has stopped phoning) anyway. It would be interesting to see what happens if we dont have contact. Tricky with the finances, which we could email about I guess. I cant believe he is literally refusing to see me now.
I said didnt I, I'd know by the eclipses and it wasnt looking good (astrologically). So, I dont know about detaching and LRTing, I think I need to face up to acceptance, that its over.
