God give me the patience and the strength...6

[theotherhalf]

Sat H came out and the girls, H and I went a picked sweet corn. H helped me get it froze and bagged. He was here till about 4:30. He left to go home and get ready for Mom's/Nieces b-day party. N14 and I got ready to go.

We all went to b-day party. It was okay. But totally obvious H was uncomfortable, as was I. H left around 9. About 1/2 hour or 45min. later I went out to have a smoke. H had called my phone. I called him back. He said he thought I looked bored. Said we could go out to the farm and have a fire if I wanted. If not, no big deal. I told him, yea sounded like a plan. So that's what we did. It was a good time. Nice, realaxing, peaceful. Kind of thought maybe he'd talk but didn't, but that's okay. I did ask him to stay so that he didn't have to drive back to town. (was pretty drunk). I told him that I will go to bed and leave him alone, just like if he was at his place. He did the teen thing and acted as if he was going to leave, but in the end he stayed.
I made him a couple of sandwiches then went to bed. Well he ended up crawling in the bed with me. I DID not do anything I let him lead the way. He curled up next to me. Cuddled with me. He was wanting more, but didn't push and I didn't either. So we didn't. and that was okay too.

This morning all was good. He spent the whole day here. Ate supper with us. Stayed till almost 10 tonight. We had a great day.

Okay...I'm wondering WTH? I wondering what's he thinking? I'm wondering what's going on? BUT! I'm changing nothing! I'm not asking. I'm not calling him. I'm not going to see him. I'm being as very still as I possibly can.

I have no idea why he was around so much this weekend, why he stayed here. But I know that this man is very confused and that he is thinking. It is what it is and there is nothing I can do except to leave him and alone and let him figure it out. I pray that he does. I guess we'll see.

Off to work tomorrow YUK! Have a great week all!