Ali *hugs*... I don't know what to say... There IS grey too, you know. Pull back and let him contact you. It's hard as hell. But... it gives you some sanity back. I'd say STOP phoning him. His birthday is next week, send an email only. No giffies... no meeting up.

Hun... you really need to detach. And trust me when I say this... even detached... you'll go through enough hell to keep you company ;)... it just gives you some of your balance back.

He's got you pulled at both end of your rope. TIME to take that back for you. Hard,... feels like you're jumping off a cliff and having "end" if you do this... but at this point... what's left to lose? PULL BACK. Not black... just dark grey... let him earn warmth and muppet convos.

*hugs*
Abbey

T:22, M:20
H:55 Me:45
H-OW PA: N/07
OW Jan08
Bomb:Feb/08
S: Apr/08
Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11
Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess.
Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.