Trying ... well if you can call it that, I guess.

[Abbey]

These folks have been really good to me. And it's funny because the H felt that these people wouldn't be my friends if it wasn't because of the family we were "in". Strange eh? The people who he thought were users have washed their hands of him (and his family) to support me. Hardly "users" I'd say.

From things I've been told... people are polite (which I've asked of them to do)... but nobody condones the way he treated me... and hoisted me out like garbage.

Strange, he phoned again tonight, made some excuse about dropping off some mail. I wasn't here to answer the call. Don't really know what to make of it. I was to wack more golf balls actually. Maybe he expected me to be home... I dunno. I mean I think on some level he remembers that I said I didn't wish to see him. So just leaving a message that he's passing by my house... seemed strange. What if I was having a BBQ with friends? Or have a BF or something? (not that I do)... but to just say he was impromptu dropping off stuff... did he think I might be home (which often I don't get to the phone on time... and we'd play that dance again where he'd ask me... You eaten etc?) It was earlier this time too. 5:15pm. I dunno. Maybe he just wanted to see the critters and not me. I don't even begin to understand the man anymore. He's not MY "h". He's some f'g stranger that aliens have captured and slurpted out his brain.

I really don't know how he expects me to respond to the home alone thing. At this point, he doesn't want me. Doesn't know what the hell he wants, probably. I've reverted to... when in doubt... do/say nothing.

And yeah... the moaning thing. I got that about how hard it is to keep the gardens etc. I got the same whinging about all kinds of things about money etc. Booh f'g hoo. I didn't ask for this break up. And like you... I'd like him and yours to walk in our shoes. *grr*

Abbey