Starbuck: Looking at the title of your thread something just occured to me - it's not hopeless- but you'll have to rethink and redefine what you think of as hope. Hoping to get back the M you had won't work - since that's what brought you here - hoping to change his mind won't work - since he's already stepped into a different mindset - hoping for a miracle won't do - but learning to work and hoping to learn as much as you can from others here - that will start to make profound changes in you - that will impact you for the rest of your life - and, I expect, give you a more lasting sense of hope than you've had before.
