I realized today that I've been faking my PMA and it shows. When I interacted with W this morning it was the 'real me'. I wasn't being nice just to be nice, I really did want her know that I didn't blame her for the Sears money fiasco.
I think part of the reason is that even though it hurts, I've reached a calm place of acceptance. I know that I'm forgiven for my role in all this, and I know I forgive her for her role. I understand who she is now, and who I am also.
I would be grateful if we had a chance to put it all behind us and re-learn how to love each other for who we are. Until then, I will continue to be kind and decent in our interactions, and keep my main focus on my own life and what I'm doing to keep my kids in their home, and all other things I need to do.
I hope it's not to late to salvage these things, and I know God will show me what to do.
