She was suppose to start work at 4. I thought she was bringing the kids here. It was a little after 4. I call down her parents to see if my kids were there. They were not. I assumed they were down there and they were coming here. I talk to her dad. He said he will have mom call her. The kids were not there all day.
So she didn't go to Church at all.
Then I call her cell phone. It goes to vm. I call the ice cream shop. No answer. None of this is funny. Mind starts looping. I just take a deep breath. Someone is lying to me. It's the enemy working. Why didn't the store answer? Why didn't she answer? Why are her parents being coy?
I was getting ready to leave. I was going to see if her (MY) explorer was at the shop. I was halfway out the driveway. She shows up. She is calm, and so am I. I said why didn't you answer your phone. I thought you had to be at work at four. She says oh I don't care, because I have to go to the grocery store and get banana's for the store. I said you could have at least told me what was going on.
I said have a nice night at work. She says. YEAH RIGHT!
Well I wanted to say. It was your dumb a$$ decision to leave me and go to work. You had it made.
I'm here quessing what the heck is going on. The kids want to go down there grandparents and stay over.
I'm thinking forget that!
I call her parents back. MIL answers. I said I have the kids mom, she just dropped them off. I don't know what is going on though because she doesn't talk to me.
MIL says the kids want to come down and play with nephew. I said are they planning on staying over. I don't know her schedule. Do you know what time she works tomorrow? Big pregnant pause. She says she works 4 till close.
I'm thinking: OK BACK THE TRUCK UP! Why do my kids need to stay over the grandparents if she works at 4?
She doesn't want to be a mother. She doesn't want to be a wife.
It makes no sense.
I said MIL (NAME) why couldn't she tell me that simple thing. That the kids are staying over night with you, and she works at 4-close.
Still thinking: What is the bid damn secret? Why doesn't she want her kids tonight? Is this more evidence of another man thing. The last time she did this I went down there and she was with a female coworker. Did she switch over to the otherside?
This is all mind boggling. As least my interaction with her was good.
I'm contemplating not taking the kids down her grandparents. My kids should stay here. I'm their father. If the grandparents want them down there. TUFF SH|T! This is their home. They can stay here tonight.
I'll take them somewhere in the morning before I go to work.
Simple schedule. No it's a day by day hell.
I know I'm getting brow beat over this schedule thing. Trying to keep things calm. Keep the ship on course. Eyes straight.
IAN I want to see my kids everyday. Please do not brow beat me on this.
Then it just makes my imagination go crazy. Why doesn't she want the kids with her tonight? Why does she always seem to do this on Sundays?
Why does she continue to make things difficult? Why are her parents enabling her?
