I just got back from church. I found a place where the messages always pertain to some part of my life. The new series is called You Are Here. It talked about Elijah, passage being in Kings 1, and how he tested the people worshiping Baal, and showed them that he was not a god. Only God was. But then he got tired, and ran for fear of being killed. God found him, and told him to go back. When he did, he found many followers of God, where Elijah thought he was the only one.
It also stated that in the midst of the fire, earthquake, and storm, Elijah was waiting for God's voice, but it was only when it was silent that he heard God speak.
The message behind the message is that sometimes we need to go back to where we started, and start over. I found this message particularly endearing because I have been contemplating the beginning of my relationship with H, when we were friends. I realized that you can't ever really go back, but you can go back to the ideas of the beginning, when there was no pressure, when it was just about loving each other and making each other happy.
I think that this may pertain to all of us a little. We are trying so hard to find the way to reconcile with our spouses that sometimes, we don't stop to listen. There is so much noise going on, radio, television, phones, and the noise of every day life, that it is only in the moments of silence that we can be focused enough to hear God's voice.
This takes me back to about a week ago, when I was so frustrated, ready to backslide and send H an email. I took myself out of the sitch, went down to my car, and sat in silence. The voice did come, small, but said stop. just wait. And I listened. H called 20 minutes later.
Floyd, listen to God's voice. Take moments of silence, calm your brain, heart, soul and mind, and breath. You will hear it.
(((Floyd)))
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
