About the money...there was money in there when he first left, when that was gone, our mortgages bounced (rent doesnt cover them anymore), eventually I paid money in to cover and had to ask for half back. If I remind him, it would be because we cant have any more defaults (its joint names). Its not caretaking of him, its just reality!?? He's paying no attention to it and its very stressful. I dont think he's going to stop drinking though as he told me (sounding reassured) that the Doc said it was ok to drink on his tablets!
If he had an OW, yes that would be it, as that would effectively be his new GF, seeing as we've been split up and he's not been in love with me, as he says, for 9/10 months. Thats moving on proper right?
My BFF says, I have made it this far, I should continue to wait the year, till November, like I said all along I would. So I guess I will do that but need to cope better in the meantime. Its discouraging that he wont deal with me though. Although I did get a couple of emails this week (brief). Its just such massive rejection, its like he's left me twice. I cant believe how much power he has, or I feel he has and how powerless and weak I feel in the face of his actions and rejection of me.
Maybe I should see how it goes this week, if he contacts me to meet up. I guess I shouldnt contact him at all.
Although, its his birthday Thursday and I cant ignore that?
