She picked me up Friday to drive to our home town. She was very mean and nasty in the car. I DB well and told her not to treat me that way. She told me I was not welcome and her parents house. She did not understand why I want to go since I HATE her sister and our nephew. What ever more DBing. The next day I went to the Bday party. Great to see all the family. Hung out a lot with sister and nephew. Got a bit weird as no one there knows were are separated. Eventually it came up that my work and the school are 3 hours apart and they figured we were living apart for that. As the evening went on she warmed up a bit. Her family loves me and keep talking about how great we are and all that. After they left I said good by to the folks and told her I would see her tomorrow (today) but she keep following me out. She was very happy and we talked a bit joked around and she said she had a good night and that my present for him was the best.
Ok here the problem and its going to sound very familiar as I constantly wine about it because I can bring myself to make the right decision. Paid the phone bill yesterday. All of a sudden an old number is on there. The OM who lives here in our hometown. I am crushed pissed, and everything in-between. I put a block on her phone. Then I removed it, I want to say I am disappointed. I want to tell her to F off. I am leaving today she stays till Tuesday the day before our anniversary.
Who knows he was a friend before, maybe he is now. Does an affair change anything I guess not, but I am tired of this [censored]. Is this always going to keep coming up, am I even going to be able to get over this past pain and mistrust of her. I am switching my number to a different company and taking this opportunity to get myself an iphone, then once mine is off I will tell her I left that company so here is the account and she needs to manage it. I want more then anything to tell her off but that only hurts me and my cause so I will tell you all. I AM HURT AND PISSED there that felt better. The only way I can compete with this loser is to be the great guy I know I am and see what happens.
I wont say anything to her, and ill try to not think about it either, but I am so disappointed.
Yesterday was great with the family, but they are always so impressed with me and were very vocal about it last night. I was not sure if that would make her uncomfortable or not. We did talk a lot about law school too and they were very proud of her as well.
Does anyone out there have that magic compass that can point us in the right direction. I guess if you did you would not be here. Well I have to meet her in an hour so better work on that happy face.
Me 27, W26 T-12 M-4 SEP 4/29/08 Holding 250 miles Awaiting Support Current
