I found some yummy cheese!

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Jen and ITH-
thanks for your input....i saw H for a few last night at a nice local hotel with a cute bar area that had a warm fireplace...so we just sat by that and talked for a little...i invited him out just for a little- he responded right away and said good idea...

so fari think i have mostly invited him places and he has said yes 95% of the time. so it seems as though i am the inviter and he accepts...interesting..my coach said him saying yes is part of the friend stage and its ok if i always initiate...

mostly non R stuff..but i did bring up a little about the moving away from my family part and really reiterated what he said the other day..i said i have really been thinking about what you said and i really agree...bc the other day i agreed but was a bit wishy washy...he listened to what i had to say and agreed with me...so that was good..

then we walked on the waterfront and it was beautiful and foggy- no more R talk...i could tell he wanted to bring up his "i dont know" what to do type of talk but i didnt feed into it...then we went to his apt for a few minutes- i put my head in his lap- h put his head on mine after...then i said i had to go bc i was meeting a girlfriend today for a walk....he said thanks or the booty call- it was kinda funny bc i took of my boots at his place and had boots in my hand- so i smirked and gave him a look- like yea right- you've seen nothing yet with a booty call! no nookie up to this point FYI.

so i plan on seeing him today again

i also aid we could look at an area that he brought up to move to today- he said maybe- im not sure....so ill let him take the lead.


as for my job- i cant really leave until we decide everything bc it is a very complicated issue with our finances tied in to my family and the house too....

but i realize i have made it more complicated than it has to be..so once he gives me the "green light" ill be looking around.

as for grad school- its a masters degree (in counseling psychology! thats where i learned of michelle weiner-davis' name) so i can get most of my courses done and then i have tons of field work hours which i can do any where....so thats good...

so there we are for now- trying to slow myself down but also really look at my life in all aspects..now is the time to change.