Vent:

H is so selfish. So self absorbed. Its all about him. All of it. I have been telling him he cannot stay at the house on the weekends (when he goes out to bars). Last weekend, he honored my boundaries, as he did Friday night. Last night, at 2am, I hear him come in and go to sleep on the couch. Then at 4am, I hear his phone alarm going off, and after 5 minutes I had to get up and tell him to shut it off. I was fuming. I said nothing, as its not good for anyone to confront at 4am in a t-shirt and messy hair ;\) but I will be talking to him

He is just so unattractive in many ways to me. His self centered attitude, his cocky attitude, or even his 'poor me' attitude. I am so much better with him not around. I feel like he is living his life, moving on, yet I have NO room to move on. I can't breathe. UGH In so many ways I want this D now, so he can stop hurting me as a wife. I am so much safer with H as a friend only.

Blah blah blah

Good things:

The girls and I spent the entire day outside doing all the fun stuff: scootering (D6 loves her new Razor), biking, walking, chalking, talking... \:\) Ordered pizza and had it delivered to the driveway with a bunch of neighbors. I fell asleep exhausted and peaceful, as did my babies. \:\)