Long Walk Home on the Lake Erie Shore

[Neilh23]

Actually, no, I wasn't. THat was one idea that crossed my mind, along with the other ones.

I had 3 sessions with a DB Coach....Dotty...she's given me alot of great advice....i'm just frustrated because i sensed her moving closer, and then she's pulled back a ton. that, plus i started to obscess over things...at least here. I really haven't shown any of this to my W...or expressed any of it to her

i'm using Michelle's ideas as my, to use a teaching term, curriculum. HOwever, with all curriculum's, the better you can put your own spin on things to make them work for your sitch, the better off you are. That's why i've read so many books. Of coursde, since i got michelle's, i haven't gotten anymore books.

you were right of coruse, as was PDT, that i've been looking for a quick fix. I know i can't go back to the life we had. I honestly don't want that. However, i do believe that some things will be the same. We would communicate differently, that's all. I think i need to reread DR anyways. i'm working on it....i just need to wrap mymind around doing it.

Part of it, i wonder, is if i'm really still mad at her for leaving. and that that's preventing me from putting these things into practice....

so i'm not sure if i'm frustrated with myself or her. Probably a little bit of both. It's like i set this deadline for myself (end of this summer) to improve my sitch to the point where we would be together. when in reality, that wasn't what I needed to do.
oiy vay.
things are going to stasrt picking up soo nfor me, so i won't have as much time to obscess over things...LOL....