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I'm sitting here kinda bummed. Took Peanut to a movie. My parents came too. While we waited for them, we people watched.

People - it's like Noah's ark out there. \:\( Almost everyone is paired up. Gay, straight. \:\(

Or familied up. Kids, husband, blah blah.

I am in a funk. And to top it off (perhaps she's just sleepy?) Peanut is pushing every last button. Cranky, whining, etc. and I have no patience. So I've yelled. And I feel bad. Bad mom.

I guess last night I realized....I do eventually want to be married again. I really wonder though - if all guys that are left on the market (at least locally LOL!) are all the same. Is that guy out there? The one who will love me, cherish me, respect me, LOVE my Peanut? Is marriage a myth?


OK have your little pity party, you're entitled. Of course you won't be alone. Right now you feel that way because you were sitting and tuning in on other people and imagining that everyone else is happy but you. Well I would bet we've all done that. You're just more sensitive to it now because you're fearful of how your future's going to play out, but believe me there is someone wonderful out there waiting for you.

Give yourself a pat on the back. You know what you want, and although you probably could be dating someone, you've put your child and your standards above that.