I have met a lot of new people but they all have kids and just can't be available. I have met them through my Divorce Care group - same place I met CG. They are really nice women and I would love to hang out with them but again, they have multiple kids and their schedules are a nightmare.
I couldn't contact CG even if I had the nerve to do it. I don't have a phone number for him. I couldn't ever do that anyway. Not appropriate since 1)I'm not D'd yet. 2)I'm still to raw and could not be one on one with any man unless he was family or an old friend. It is definitely too late anyway and I know he has his kids this weekend. They're only 6 and 3 years old so unlike my son who is 13, he has to be with them at all times.
I would love to get involved in an activity but my schedule is a mess. Between running my son to karate 2-3 times per week (which are in the evening), trying to get my new business running in my off time, attending bible study and my divorce group, and all the day to day stuff that has to be done there is just no time to get involved in an activity. Of course, the amount of time I spend here on the boards could be better spent getting other things done but my mental outlook would suffer.
I keep thinking that this is just excuses. I back up, go over the my schedule versus the classes offered by our rec department and I can't make it work. Maybe some day.
Right now, my biggest focus has to be trying to build my business. If I don't, we're going to end up on the streets sooner than later. You know, when you get paid one day and the very next day you are down to $20 for the next two weeks and your gas tank is empty, there are very few groceries, and you have to come up with money for equipment for your son, my Dr. appt on Monday, son's meds on Tuesday, and God only knows what else it really makes life seem impossible.
My mom actually paid for some groceries tonight. Anybody buying organs? That's about all I have to sell that would be worth anything to anyone.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
