First Thread in a long time......

[Holly06]

Santhony,

I am so glad to hear from you! Thank you for keeping up with me. I am fine. I do believe my best interest is met when this D is final. I am OK. I am not done, frankly, I do believe that he needs to lose me to lose his mind completely. What an honor, to be the loss that he needs to straighten his life out and become a better man.
I hope you are happy Sir Santhony. You are a knight in shining armor. When you get a chance, catch us up. OK? Take care of those wonderful kids, especially my namesake!!!:)
Trusting, thank you. Yes, it does help. Not that I want any human being to be miserable, but if it helps TJ to become a better man in the long run, so be it. I trust God to guide this. I have given it to Him over and over and over again.

I do believe that my chances go up after the D. In any case, I believe his D will give me what I need to finish my journey.

I just got back from a lovely vacation. I was happy and content and did not really think about all this at all. I vacationed with a girlfriend and her 5 year old son. The last day I designed a treasure hunt for him. I purchased pirate tatoos, pirate figures, added some coins and other cute treasure type things. I buried the "treasure" and drew a map for him to discover and watch him find the treasure. It was so funny to see him go all over after the warning not to talk to anyone least they are the pirate who lost the treasure. He bought it hook line and sinker!!!!!
I also found myself quietly content to live my life without TJ. I don't know if the feeling is permanent or just that I was not "living" alone. I was content. In a way that surpised me. But I am ready for the future without him.
As we approached our home state, I got a little teary. I loved having a vacation from misery.
Let's see what happen.

Funny thing happened last night.
I googled TJ. An interview he did came with a local paper came up. It was published in June. I think he sounded a bit bizzare and not very clear. He did not really answer the question that was posed. He rambled.
Thank you all. I found comfort in reading tonight.
Always,
Holly