I found some yummy cheese!

[pisces9]

ok- so i have had a good weekend so far...met with girlfriends, ran some errands...talked to H yesterday and i will see him tomorrow...there is a lingering feeling inside me and its excitement and wanting my H back with me NOW...

i know i have to be patient- but he gave me so much to think about..in terms of my job, where we live, moving, etc.

so today i also spent a good hour writing in my journal about all that- the pros and cons of it all.

i realize we have to move away from my family and i probably should leave my job with my family.

so that is major and now i have to sit still and see what he wants to do.

i want him to tell me what he wants...he got close to that the other day..so i will just wait...it also seems crazy to change everything bc he hasnt even committed back to me yet.

i am in grad school and i love it and dont want to leave it so thats another piece of this.

i feel excited and determined but also scared of this change. im ready to tackle it and just let go of all the "what ifs" regarding leaving my family and job. its all very connected and i am financially tied in as well with them. that is the most confusing part of this. what would i do instead?

so its good...but i just have to wait more.

any ideas on panning my life? ha ha ha