I think I am heading to first

[yenko69]

I do still have doubt in my mind and tears in my eyes. Guess I was not as detached as I thought. I think you are right I just need to step back for a couple days.

I will probably will skip tomorrow. She usually calls me everyday, but I did not figure she would today. And she did not. Probably have to see her Monday if she gets paid. But, I will make it as short as possible. I will have D11 so I think I will take her and go do something. Out to eat fishing whatever.

I was looking at some pics of her on the computer. Tough to make a decision with any certainty. I will still make it through this alright and pick myself up. Just not in the mood right now. I do hate self pity and feeling like a victim though.