I have a theory, it came to me while I was out running an errand. This whole trip is due to running into the OW, and the fact that they had a fight, or at least that is what it sounds like. He has said before that everytime he interacts with her it is terrible because it brings up all kinds of bad memories that he doesn't want to go through. I think he has to deal with all the junk all over again, because it is an in you face reminder. I also can understand that there may be residual feelings for her that get stirred up and that also makes him feel bad. So the alien comes out and does a little dance on our relationship and then I get paranoid, and we all know how attractive that is.
I think it will be good to go to counseling together, I suspect we will be able to talk about some of this stuff. In addition I am hoping that we will start working on reconnecting, some day he will trust that the changes I have made are permanent, at least I hope he will.
I have a feeling this is going to be an even longer road that I thought. I have to be prepared for the long fight. Lots of biting my tongue and letting go.
Gosh and just when I really need a hug too.... figures
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
