(((Yenk))) I am sorry to hear you had such a rough time. It is exhausting. I was posting today to Floyd that sometimes the emotional exhaustion takes such a toll that you just need to give your brain a rest.
If you feel that you need to not go over there tomorrow, then don't. What you have been through and are going through are both very traumatic experiences. Sometimes it is okay to say I have had enough, step back, and re evaluate the sitch. We all vacillate. It is a great mix between I want...I don't want. That is a normal part of the roller coaster.
Only you can decide when you can't take the hills and valleys anymore. If that time has come, you will know. But if there is any doubt in your mind, you are not ready, and sometimes you just need to take a step back. You have to take care of you during this time. It's not about giving up. Its just about saying okay I can't do this right now, I need a breath. I need what I need, and I am not going to ignore what I need.
Eventually you get your second wind, and if you listen to the voice in your head and, yes, heart, it won't steer you wrong.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
