Well, as life would have it I had to drive by there why I was working, I am a county deputy. Her car was still there this morning. Needless to say that it has been a pretty rough day. I had to find a dirt road and park to get it out of my system to continue on with the day.
For most of the day I have been wanting to keep fighting even when I was hurt. Now I am not so sure. I am pretty confused right now. I find that kind of behavior going against my belief system. Maybe it is the sign I should just end it myself and move on.
I am supposed to go over and do some stuff tomorrow night. I may have cancel out with the I am to tired. She should be ok with that since we work 6am to 6pm.
I did find out she is helping my mom set up a wedding shower with my cousin. She had to pick up D11 since she stayed with my parents. I don't know how she can stay there, face your in laws and tell them you would help them out. I think I would be to ashamed of myself for that.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
