Hi sooners, I am feeling the same way about my situation. I feel I'm in a hole this week. I just am tired of going out by myself so I don't even go out now. For at least 2 months or more, I stopped going to dance class, dance studio on Fri nights, and going to the movies Sat. Because I think about and miss my H when I do go.
I am going out into the backyard and read and pray now.
Hang in there. Your post brought tears to my eyes because I sure identify witht he pain you're describing, especially when we want so much to give and try on our Ms.
Ok PH h was a no call no show today. This is the part I just don't get. I can't understand how he can disappoint the kids like this. They were expecting him and said call daddy. Well I call and left a message and of course no answer and no return call.
It's like he wants so much from me, but just can't give in return.
Not sure what to think! Any ideas?
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
Ok PH h was a no call no show today. This is the part I just don't get. I can't understand how he can disappoint the kids like this. They were expecting him and said call daddy. Well I call and left a message and of course no answer and no return call.
It's like he wants so much from me, but just can't give in return.
Not sure what to think! Any ideas?
Wow--as if the enemy started in and then your h calls. I have heard that depression can cause one to sleep like that.
Let us know how it went.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Ok so I made dessert for the neighbor and he answered the door in just shorts. I was like hi dropped by with some dessert with a big smile on my face. I was just suprised that he was all bare chested if you know what I mean.
H came over and we picked up a few groceries and I made dinner. We then took the kids to the gym and went swimming. We had a nice time. H kept grabbing me in the pool like he had forgotten what my body was like. Yikes! I was just laughing and grabbed him back a few times.
We came home had dessert and then h said want to take a shower. I said sure. It's kinda interesting. I don't really remember taking that many showers with h, but he seems to like them of lately. They have been rather romantic.
I was a bit bold and asked h if he had any idea when he would be moving home. He said soon. I know I have been fixated on this and now will just need to put it to bed and let him take the plunge. I am not jumping up and down or anything, it's not like that means anything yet.
H said he was going to start IC soon, so I think that will benefit us as well. Oh and he said now that he is working he is going to get us a new bed. That is how he said it. Not me, us.
So I think I did good today. Our interactions were very good and h said something about getting me a new car and asked what I wanted. I said a Nissan 350Z and he said are you in a MLC. He he he!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
Lots of praises in you situation. Thank God for all of this. You are in my prayers.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Thanks Steelers. I am really trying. I need to let go of the coming home, it's just that it means so much to me. I do need to thank God for all that my h is right now.
He does seem to be connecting more and more each day. He did say he still needs to work on his issues. Whatever they may be. I am not sure!
I think you may have the DB book. I was re-reading today and noticed a whole chapter on depression. You may want to re-read that if you have the book.
Thanks for the prayers.
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
I am happy for you and you are handling all of this beautifully. It just goes to show that God does answer prayer in His timing.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
I didn't think what I had to say would move you to tears, but it is how I feel. I ask God to search my heart and see that what I feel for my W is pure and for the all the right reasons, I strongly believe that it is. God knows and I want my W to know just how much I want to completely give myself to my W in every way possible. Like you I read a lot and have learned a great deal. Recently thinking about our couple issues for her leaving I feel that I do not deserve a D for these problems but that they should be worked through and overcome. I hate D as much as God and have mentioned to God in prayer. Now that my W is living on her own and she has privacy and that quiet time to think I have been praying very strongly that her and God are growing their relationship. I pray that God will work in her life and show her how important our marriage is to him. Lord please restore our marriage to all that you want it to be and more.
