Hi Lea! I wondered what had happened to you, lovely for you to post to me! How strange that we are mirroring one another then. The doc said I had reactive depression but I am loathe to take the pills. Although earlier, I wished I had started on them. Everything just feels so bleak, you know? I'm sorry that you feel that way too, as a consequence of your H leaving.
Gosh, what you said, I hadnt put that in my posts, but I often think exactly the same thing.."He has lost his sparkle in his eyes, the care free laugh he used to have is gone. He's like a shadow of his former self. Sadder and angrier." - I was just thinking back earlier to a time when he was happier and was always laughing and his eyes would sparkle. Now he looks like someone just died, or he can 'turn it on' in front of friends and if he has had a drink. The last time I saw him, he looked agitated and had downcast eyes and was ranting about work and losing his thread, so wierd, he never used to be like that.
He sounds ok on the phone though and the old sweetness creeps back into his voice. Thats so hard to hear!
So have you not had contact for 5 months then? What happened about the house? Hugs to you.
