Have been lurking on these boards, keeping up to date with your sitch. I'm really really sorry about the latest development.
My situation was very similar to yours: H with depression, the split coming out of the blue and with no explanation, and then being 'messed about' by him after.
When I read your posts its like reading my thoughts. I will never understand why my H stopped loving me (my bomb was just 6 months into our M), and every day is still a struggle. I am depressed, and my doc has even put me on anti d's (how ironic eh!) But....I'm getting there. He left finally on 29th March, and nearly 5 months on its getting a bit easier. He's now not the first thing I think about in the mornings, nor the last thing I think about before I go to sleep. I have learnt to accept that I will never get an answer or explanation of why he has done this, or why his feelings changed. Have also realised that he isnt the man that I knew and loved all those years. He has lost his sparkle in his eyes, the care free laugh he used to have is gone. He's like a shadow of his former self. Sadder and angrier.
Ali-you deserve sooooo much better. We both do. I gave 18 months into trying to make my H better and make our M work. It doesnt work if they don't want it to. And that really is the bottom line. I agree with you-my self esteem is at rock bottom and I think that there must be something wrong with me, thats why my H left. But the problem lies with them.
Really sorry for waffling, but I do know exactly what you're going through
Lea xxx
Me-26 H-27 T-10 years M-20 months First bomb-Feb 07 Second bomb-March 08
