Here I am....real life and all.

[Starshyne]

Hi everyone! I am here. Things have gotten hectic because I am back working and trying to set up my classroom. I had a wonderful time in Chicago. The perfect escape.

Let me see if I can catch you up with what has been going on. First off I went out on a date Tuesday night. The guy that I have been calling "cutie" doesn't seem to be working out. I don't know....I am keeping that open, but he just doesn't seem to be into me the way he was when we first got together. He is still very hurt over his ex-wife and things. I went out on a date (which I never did with "Cutie") with a guy that I actually graduated high school with. We had Chinese and then hung out at his house. He isn't gorgeous, just average, but seems super nice. I am not sure where that is going either, but that is fine. I dont' want to jump into a rebound relationship, but I also want to move forward in my life and not sit around the house feeling awful. I want to meet new people and have new experiences. These dates seem to help me in that regards.

As for Ex-H, he is still calling me at least once or twice a day just to chat. I told him to quit calling me "sweetie" but he still does from time to time. Sometimes I talk to him and other times I don't. The other night at 2am, I get a text message form him that says, "Sara I miss you. I'm so sorry 4 ruining are marriage." I don't know how that is supposed to make me feel. I miss him too. But I don't miss the crap I was putting up with.

I got an email from OW on Monday that was one big run-on sentence about how I have a boyfriend of my own and don't need to contact EX-H ever again in my life. I wrote her back a very intelligent email saying that I understand that she does not want from ex and I to talk, but right now that is impossible because of the car and the house. That we were marriaged and there are several legal things that need to be finished. It could take up to a year before I can end all contact with him. I am sure that she can be an adult in this matter. Didn't hear back from her after that.

I am stressed out and overwhelmed with work. I have already had to explain my name change to about 5 teachers and I expect it is only going to get worse. Oh well....

Sara