Thanks Mishka, I was just about to call then. I wont. If you know you're like that then, why dont you practice not being like that?
So I was right, its over. On the lunar eclipse. He had the chance to see me and he made some lame excuse about not feeling well. I have hung on for him for a year. He never did meet anyone else, as far as I know.
He is ruled by fear and shame from what I know of him. He is incapable of verbalising this. When I found out some stuff about him, he curled up in the foetal position for 2 hours. Our R was never the same after that (3 years ago) and I dont think it will be after this. So thats its then, over.
I actually feel sick and anxious and I cant eat. Gonna call that EAP line as I dont want to bother my friends on a Saturday night. This is a horrible horrible life lesson.
