Breath (((Yenk))) breath. Remember to ask yourself "what is my goal?" Don't drive out there. I know it is a strong feeling, and one I have had to fight, but I can honestly say I have only driven past H's house once, within the first month.
Sometimes, you have to ask yourself if you really want to know the answers to the questions. Be careful, because you might get answers you don't want, and that will make it very hard to act as if.
I have thoughts like that too, wondering what the H is doing, if he is seeing someone. I have to work very hard to push those thoughts out of my head, but I find replacing them with a memory of a happier time usually works. Try that.
And pray. A LOT. I find that the relationship I have developed with God has gotten me through a huge amount of very low moments. Listen, because I am firmly convinced He always speaks back (not necessarily in words..lol..I am not schizo) but in our feelings and what that brings. Listen to them. And then, even if it feels wrong, do what you feel you must by relaxing, breathing, and letting your W have her space. Sometimes we need to make our own mistakes if not just to learn from them.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
