He didnt say he didnt want to speak to me, or see me, he kept saying he didnt want to see anyone and felt crappy and crabby and grumpy and ...well, all those kinds of words. "I want to close the doors on the world" was another one. Maybe I'll post it. Think so, but I am no good at reading tarot. Why?
I just looked in the mirror and my heart sank, I look old. I'm not the young vivacious girl I was when we started meeting for lunch every day 10 years ago. I look tired and spotty and old.
I do think he has decided to stop seeing me (platonically even) and managed to get through 3 without me confronting that decision with me and I just did on the 4th and he wriggled away again. He wouldnt say anything concrete, in fact, he kept insisting he was just ill. Its just that he hates confrontation and having already gotton out and away from me, and managed to avoid me for nearly 3 weeks he must feel he is nearly home and dry without having to do what he is unable to do - face it and be honest. Its just avoidance.