Still in organizing mode....I think that's a good sign. We are registering my S for Kindergarten (only child) and I'm having a hard time with that. Didn't think I would. My job starts back up soon so I will be busy busy. Not sure how I feel about that. Less time for my mind to wander so that is good I guess.
I'm really trying to keep my mind away from ANY thoughts of OM. They creep in and before my mind kept telling me to let them through, like I need to think them out and it will figure it out and make it better. I've come to the conclusion (even though everyone told me this from the start) that I just need to NOT think them through. When they come, think of something else. Trying to think of bad things about OM doesn't help me. My mind is still fogged about who he truly is yet so I can't "go there". Time will help me, it already has.
My H and I continue to go to Retrovaille. We have a session tonight. We continue to dialogue together as well. All things that are keeping us connected and getting us in a "better place" to move forward from. Baby steps.
