WCW - I know I may sound bitter about H letting me take the blame, but I really am not. I have let that go. I just needed to write it. I knew all along that I was right, in my gut, like you said. In a way all that blaming of myself was a way to avoid the truth, and I know that. In a strange twisted sort of way, I also know why H let me do it.
The past is the past. I've been thinking a lot lately about not even wanting him back unless he can commit to making serious changes in how we communicate. I don't know how I could ever trust him again if he didn't. This realization is helping me take the focus off of him, just a little. I have a long way to go.
I wish I knew who I was. I wish I knew what I wanted out of life, for me. As for now, I have no idea, but I do have a bracelt that just came out of the polisher that I need to finish.........
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
