di, take your focus off the past and get over being bitter about H letting you take the blame. It will consume you and you become bitter about life.
You knew all along there was an ow and wanted to believe your H. He lied. You believed. You can't change the fact that you wanted to believe. Stop now thinking about that.
Work on who you are now. Start today to be a better person physically and emotionally. Make some jewelry. Love yourself.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
