Yeah short, I hear ya. But you told me early on that I have to take responsibility for my part and I have. We had problems, some of them were my responsilbility, some of them his. I accept mine, him not so much.
I cannot make him see, so I dont try. I cannot make him apologize, so I dont try. I can look in the mirror and know that I have behaved with dignity and honesty. Him - I dont know.
So, the point I am trying to make is you cannot blame yourself for it all, and you cannot be at fault for it all. Accept what is yours, let the rest go. That is the only way to move forward, I think.