One year past the turning point. I have called this the "bomb" date since I came here, but really that is wrong. 8/15/06 was the day I accused H of having an affair-----an affair that he flatly denied. Although I continued to suspect OW, I spent a good portion of a year and a half blaming myself for everything, and for the ultimate bottoming out of our relationship. And guess what, H let me. He let me tear myself up, and cut myself down------because I accused him of something he would NEVER do and had never thought of. Never say never----and now that I know I was right the whole time I wish I could give him the boot and move on, however the heart is a strange organ. All of this pain and I still can't bare to think of losing him. I can't bare to think that our family will be broken forever.
I truly believe that H is ill----this MLC crap is a chronic illness. If only we could treat it like any other................I don't know the prognosis yet, but I'm still standing, and giving DB another chance. I declared that I am starting over with DB (effective yesterday). I thought that magical anniversary was today, but now that I know it was really yesterday (read it on my own sig)-------------it must be fate.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
