My Heart is Breaking #8

[glamgirl]

So glad to hear you had fun at dinner. Good for you. It's amazing how our h's were in the beginning. I remember years ago, I was out with co-workers and my h who was my bf at the time was calling my cell.

I didn't hear it and didn't answer. It was a long time ago when they could clone your cell number. Somebody had cloned mine and when h called some guy answered but they didn't have my cell phone. My h was so worried and was getting his brothers together to come find me.

I just happened to call after all that. We checked on my phone and sure enough my bill was over $2000. We didn't have to pay, but I just remember how protective my h was back then.

I miss that!

[MidwesternGirl]

Wow-that was some bill.

[happynow]

SF & Glam,

Thanks for checking in on me. I do need to do it more often. Glam, that was some bill!!!

I do remember how my H used to be so concerned about me & where I was & what I was doing. He never wanted to hurt my feelings & never wanted to do anything that might cause him to loose me. Boy, have things changed.

I still can't believe he M that OW!! It's really hard to think about it, I just don't understand how he could do that so quick & how he could just forget about us.

Just venting a little bit.

[stella_k]

Dear ((((nlt)))),

thank you for all your support on my thread.

I'm sorry that you're hurting so!

I cannot send you a positive vibe, being not exactly positive myself at the moment, but I can give you a huge (((((((((HUG)))))))))).

[happynow]

Hey Stella!!!

I know you are going thru a lot yourself!!! Thank you for taking the time to check on me!

It is really been hard since I found out he got M, some people say to just give up on him but in my heart I'm not able to do that just now.

A friend of mine called me today, she was my matron of honor in our wedding. She knows the sitch & I told her today about his M, she said he has made a huge mistake. She is a firm believer in the Lord & is such a strong Christian, she told me that I needed to keep standing for my M. She said that is just the way she feels. I hope she is right. I know I can't dwell on it & I am moving on trying to do things & get his things out of site but I had just about given up on praying for him but I started back again this past week & my friend also told me that she is praying & thinks that I shouldn't totally give up.

I also send you a huge (((((((HUG)))))). I know you need it also Stella!

Hang in there, you have been so strong!!!!

[Truelove]

Hi nlt,
I hope you had a lovely week-end. Glad that at least some friends are supporting you in standing.

When your H's things will be out of your way it will be easier for you, and you will not constantly be reminded of him. (((HUGS)))

[happynow]

Hi True,

Yes, I was surprised that my friend was wanting me to stand for my M. It just seems so impossible right now.

I'm really trying to get my mind off him but it is so hard, I just miss him so bad!!! I would love to see him or talk to him or something, but I know that I cannot do that right now, I may never get to do that but I sure hope so one day.

I had a pretty good weekend, I went to dinner with friends on Friday night & then yesterday I just messed around the house, I didn't get as much done as I would have liked to but I guess that is ok. I did grill out, but that is so sad b/c H & I used to do that & he was the one that grilled. Today I washed the SUV & just rested & held my dogs a lot. A pretty depressing day, the weather was beautiful but I just miss my H so bad.

I hope you had a good weekend also, thank you for checking in on me!!

((((HUGS))))

[MidwesternGirl]

nlt:

go to my thread titled prayers. i posted something on it today with regard to unconditional love. i think you will like it.

[happynow]

SF,

I just got thru reading it! That was wonderful & thank you so much!!!

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. You have been so strong, you will get thru this, I'm sure!!

Thank you for being here for me!!!!

((((HUGS))))

[glamgirl]

NLT you sound like you are doing much better. Continue to pack up his things, so you have no reminders jumping out at you.

The memories will flood in now and then. Try reading the book the "New Earth". This might help you stay in the now vs being stuck in the past. Good read, but it's deep and on the spiritual side. You might enjoy it.

Have a good week!