Partner left after 9 yrs - looks the end is nigh

[AliSuddenly]

Hey Lisa..took a break from spring cleaning! Man cats create alot of mess.

I guess 3 is defo out. 1 is a possibility, now, although I wouldnt have said so a month ago. Now I'm not so sure. He may be more depressed, less depressed adn not needing me so much, have met someone, or fixated on job stuff and not even thinking about a relationship, but whatever it is, he has lost his need to contact me and see me regularly. Totally lost it in fact!

At least if its 1, I dont have to spend all my time expecting some change..the change has already happened, its over. If its 2, then thats the best I can hope for. The reason for saying something is for ME,...I cant keep my feelings in any longer and I dont want to go on pretending. I want to be real, in a gentle way and hopefully it wont be too awful and embarressing..he is no good at talking about this stuff since he left and hasnt really allowed me to, so I am dead nervous and dont know what to expect and it will take enormous courage just to do it I think!

I just hope I manage to say something before he freaks out.

I also hope he gives me more than a quick pop in to sign the lease, I would like to meet him Saturday night...I would have been more sure of that just a month ago, now I think I will be lucky to see him for an hour or two saturady afternoon (when the eclipse peaks!!!)