Partner left after 9 yrs - looks the end is nigh

[AliSuddenly]

Ok.. so some good news first.. I spoke to the head of the department and they are scoping the resources and he thinks they will need me to join the development team, but wont know for about 2 weeks. Yay!

Secondly...he didnt go camping. Yay! He didnt email me till 4.26 (as he left at 4.30 today), explaining I guess why he hadnt emailed me until late by saying how busy he had been all day and also asking if I had any job news again (he's obsessed). Its pretty restrained and brief and I dont know what he is planning, but I assume I will see him tommorow when he said will give you a bell tomorrow.

So...I WILL see him this weekend, on that flippin Lunar eclipse!!

I am still intending to tell him how I feel (?) or ask him why he spent so much time with me the last six months (?)...but, I dont really know what to say! I dont know what to say, how, in what order and how much or little. But the time has come to say something, I have to tell him how I feel, or point out to him that we had spent alot of time together over the past few months and how much that has meant to me and was it just friendship or is he spending time with me for a reason?..or something.

So, help! Any ideas anyone? This is it I guess, cards on the table time, so maybe it doesnt matter what I say, but I would appreciate your views. Feeling nervous and not sure whether or not to dye my hair again dark reddy brown (havent for a while now but my Mum reckoned I should as it suited me !)