Aud, I and most everyone on the Piecing forum can relate to what you're going thru. It is difficult to trust again. It is like "sleeping with one eye open."
I'd like to share an excerpt from a poem that has a calming effect on me. It is from the poem, Muslin by Jane Hirshfield:
"Finally weeks would go by, then months," she added, "but always I let him in. It made me strong, you see,
"the gradual going without him. I think it taught me a kind of surrender, though of course I hated it too."
Why he would appear or stay away she never fathomed-- "I couldn't ask. And that seemed only good."
"When he came, you see, I could trust that was what he wanted. What I wanted never mattered at all."
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
