Dear ((((all))))!
Thank you for giving me courage!

He called this morning and asked D17 if mom has called a minute ago. D said no, mom's at the pool now . H said oh, ok, i will call later then.
So he did. Same old: his project, D's college, money issues. As if any other topic would be dangerous and could lead to a R talk.
H mentioned, though, that he went to see his C yesterday (after a month or so)and was told to stay on meds. I asked if anything wrong, H said No, I'm fine. Why go to see C now? (assuming: 5 days until we see each other, he is panicking. He is panicking because he still didn't decide!).
I wanted to talk to him more but his door bell rang. H said it must be V. Now V is an old friend, the only one who was supportive of H's madness/A. V. himself went through MLC a few years ago, Dd his W of 30 years and is now on his second baby with OW. Not the
best company for my H, really.
After I hung up I had a pang of fear again. Took me a few hours to return to my new cool detached self. Sort of:)
Quote:

What I have so far.. is he is coming home.. to live with you.. and may still have some "interaction" with OW. You are just not sure what to think about all this. You don't want to show that you are "happy" he is home because there are still lots of things that need to be sorted out.

Close?

Way wrong?


In between, FG:)
Long story short: I'm in the Middle East, where H and I were teaching for a few years. H went to our home town, found a great job, found OW, started an A, kept coming back and forth, until I came over for a week in May. We had the longest R talk, next day H "broke up" with OW, came with me here (as was planned), stayed 10 days, lots of ILYs, no ML, then he returned (due to his work) to the home town, after arranging to come over here in August to help me packing, so that we could go back to home town and start a new happy life together. Needless to say, he picked it up with Ow where he left off. Now he's coming here as he promised. My H is a very nice guy. He doesn't want to hurt me. He doesn't want to hurt OW. He keeps yo-yoing for nearly two years now. He just cannot make up his mind! Sometimes I think Kalni, Lisa (One Day), Addie,W2G and I (and many others)are married to the same guy.

Now I have the gut feeling that H has changed his mind once again
but, been a nice guy, cannot leave me here in the foreign country, all alone. He needs to bring me home first, then... I don't know.

Emotion: fear.

Oh, and I will show that I'm happy! When/if I 'm happy \:\)

I have called H now, no answer \:\(
I'M SUCH AN ASS-U-ME-R!

(((((EVERYONE)))))

I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders
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M 46
H 45
D 17
M/T 23
Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06
Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07
Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08