She's contacted me a lot lately since I changed my tone to upbeat and positive and not pushy, etc. We talk a lot.
She's opened up and started venting about her parents, finding a job, new guys issues, both his mother not liking her, and the sexual frustration with him.
She's still steadfast about moving to his town, and marrying him though. I don't think she has it in her to give up on him, even if she realizes that she still loves me and he wasn't really any better than me.
She's traded my problems for his problems, but it was rosy at first, and slowly sinking in.
Eventhough, my slight pulling back, and moving on has caused her to be more active with me. I am positive that she doesn't have the capability to give up on her current plans, even if she is starting to realize her feelings for me, and the newness of her new guy is wearing off. So that's where the confusion comes from.
My dad asked me the other day if he could set me up on a blind date. I told him that if he wanted to do that, that he could just see if she was willing to let me have her phone number, and I would set things up. I wasn't going to have him making arrangements for me.
So here's the funny part. He get's her number and gives it to me. He starts to describe her for me. He says, around 30 (my age) 5'9 or 10, 130 or 140 lbs, long brown hair, brown eyes, dark complected...she's beautiful. I said, ok. Then he says, when I say she's dark complected, I mean she's really dark complected. I said, dad, are you trying to say she's black? He said, yes. I laughed and told him he could have just said that from the beginning because it doesn't matter...lol He's such a weirdo.
So anyway, I might ask her out next week or weekend. I don't know yet. It's kind of a confidence booster. Maybe God will put the right woman in front of me someday.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
