I don't want to survive, I want to live

[cat03]

hey all, some sad developments, stbx' mom was just diagnosed with cancer, she's already diagnosed with a terminal lung disease and barely gets around due to bad knees, I don't know how she is going to make it. In the past we used to just put up with one another for stbx and kids's sake, but during the ordeal of last year she was on my side and saddened by the stupidity of her son's behavior. She actually told me yesterday how I left a hole in the family when stbx separated from me.
I feel for her and told her I'd be there and will take her to her treatments when she needs it. Stbx was surprised and thanked me for being nice to her, I told him she had done nothing bad to me and that I'd want someone to be nice to my mom if that were to happen to her.

And, boy, stbx is in the hospital with, of all things, MRSA, long story short he's been there 4 days already and the dr explained him yesterday what it was all about (I took kids to see him) Sounded pretty scary, but hopefully it will be ok and they will be able to get rid of the infection. For a split second I felt something like "what goes around comes around" kinda feeling, but I'm ashamed of it now, no one deserves to have an infection like MRSA which is fatal in some cases. I know gf went to see him, bothered me for a bit but heck, not as much as before, I'm trying to put it inmy mind that they are getting married or something,so I can accept whatever comes later.
What with him buying his place away from her dont' know how they'll have a serious R, but it can't be any of my business anymore, sadly it makes me feel better when I "guess" he isnt' with her, old residue I guess.

Kids and I doing great, kids went to his place, got bored since he has not much ready yet but he's trying, some credit his way for that.

Smooches to all, still no internet at home, hopefully soon, take care all)))))