Proverb 21:19 It is better to dwell in a wilderness than with a quarrelsome and vexatious wife.
She will not talk to me. She will not even make eye contact with me now. She has gotten worse, and still wishes to spew venom.
I have decided to stand in the gap for her. Praying for her salvation and praying for my change.
I think if she opens up to me we can heal. She has to make the step. Waiting patiently. The going through hell part is subsiding.
I feel truely sorry for her because she is so lost. I'm posting to MLC because her symptoms display an MLC. I ruined her life. ILYBINILWYA. She is listening to her high school music. Her high school friend is her best friend that seems to be dragging her down. Drastic life change going into the work force from SAHM. Dressing and acting like she is 16. Total detachment from me. Makeup change and weight loss, and she still thinks she is old and fat.
I'm running to stand still. Crying without weeping, talk without speaking, screaming without raising my voice.
I'm in the jungle. The wilderness...
I received a 100% in my last online class. Don't know how I mangage it. I'm taking two weeks off before the start of my next class.
I have been dialoguing with one of wifes good friends. My wife talked to his woman daily. Now she avoids her and doesn't even speak with her on the phone. My wife even moved closer to the woman. She is also a stay at home mom. I think my wife put her morals on the woman about abortion and other matters. Now it's time for the woman to put her morals on her about marriage. I think this is why my wife is avoiding her.
The womans husband is a full blown alcoholic. He is also a cheater and was caught in the gargage by his wife with one of wifes so called good friends doing the verticle mombo. The still remains married. Her husband has quit drinking. He did fall of the wagon once. She lives in constant fear that he will drink and cheat again. She even went to Al Anon with my wife. Actually she took my wife to Al Anon with her, as her idea. They went to about six meeting together after the last miscarriage.
The woman also told me that my wife doesn't even talk to her own sister anymore. The woman and my SIL talk a couple of times a week on the phone and have play dates with the children. My wife was invited to a play date with her, SIL, and my children and my wife and children did not attend.
Today is a holy day of obligation. I only got two words to my wife last night when she picked up the children. Good and bye. I was hoping that she would talk to me about Church today. Instead she said she had to ride back to the ice cream shop because one of the girls screwed something up and she has to fix it and set the alarm.
