Feeling a little better today. I am just back and forth.
It could be that it is "that time of the month". I take seasonal birth control and I only have a period every 3 months...and have no symptoms in between....so maybe I don't recognize it having such an effect on me anymore.
I sent xh an email the other day that I paid his insurance and needed him to pay me back. I told him that he had not gotten back to me so I had no choice but to pay it. He replied to my email and was unusually nice. He thanked me for paying it and asked if he could come by Sunday after work to pay me back. So, it looks like I will see him Sunday.
I just can't get thoughts of him and OW out of my mind. I just can't believe that he was willing to throw everything away for some girl that he barely knew. Even after telling me he would never be able to forgive himself for hurting me with OW#1...and telling me how we belonged together. I have confirmed that he met OW#2 on June 7th. I found her hiding on June 22nd. I just don't understand how he can throw away an 8 year relationship for someone that he knew for 2 weeks. I guess I will never understand this.
I am glad it is Friday. I do have plans tonight with the guy that went to the wedding with me, so that should be fun. Maybe it will get me out of my funk.
