Just thought I would start a new thread with a title more in keeping with the current situation.
W and I are moving forward and I try not to look back although I do get daily attacks of negative thoughts which I manage to fight off. The latest one was W was getting all giddy about the renovation plans for the house and wanted to give me hugs and kisses as she talked about new flooring and new fire places etc. I was immediately overcome with the thought that she wouldn't be getting all of this if she was still **** OM or why didn't you stay with OM and see if he could give you all of this. But negative thoughts come and negative thoughts go, so hopefully in time they will fade away.
The renovation plans are going on, the work is bigger and more expensive than we originally planned, but that's women for you, change their minds, change plans and spend, spend, spend. Actually to her credit W is working two jobs now cos we need the money, I still feel the burden of debt, but it's not killing me so we can move on.
Our R is much better and W is less inclined to nit pick at me, but she has big distractions with the house and she is happy with the way things are going on that front. Intermacy is on hold at the moment cos W and D6 are staying at IL's while I stay at the house living amongst the dust and rubble, I don't mind a bit of discomfort, in fact I like living as a cross between a student and a homeless person. I may stay with W at the weekend, but I'll need to get D6 out of the bed so we can enjoy some Mummy and Daddy time.
So as I said at the start we are moving forward and trying not to look back.
Me:50 W: 49 T:20yrs M: 14 yrs D:11 2005 PA 2006: EA (2003 : 2007) 2007: April ILYBNILWY Aug PA, Sept Separate 2008: Feb Piecing 2009 Limbo 2011: Separated (same house) 2013: Divorcing
